A conversation between me and APPLE (names changed).

APPLE says:

i do have dreams

they're quite clear

just don't know how to get there

i realise i'm being more and more sensitive lately

to things that never used to bother me

like, ppl not adding me into their top friends

wohlres says:

well

if it's of any importance

i do feel sensitive about the top friend like issues

APPLE says:

you do?

actually i don't bother adding ppl into top friends since 5 months ago since i joined facebook

but it upsets me if everyone else is on but me

wohlres says:

actually i don't bother adding ppl into top friends since 5 months ago since i joined facebook

but it upsets me if everyone else is on but me <---- this is what im talking about

for about a year i suppose

APPLE says:

yeah

 

wohlres says:

i feel left out when ppl go out for movies

and they never even think of asking me

or the usual wish everyone good, but not me

APPLE says:

you're making me feel guilty

wohlres says:

um

no no

its okay

im used to it already

as i said last night

once you accept who you really are, things dont seem so bad after all

APPLE says:

are you?

wohlres says:

am i what?

APPLE says:

accepting

wohlres says:

bit by bit

but im sure there will come a time when i can accept that this new person is the one who will live out the rest of his days

APPLE says:

why do you say that?

wohlres says:

because im accepting who i am now

as i said bit by bit

fully accepting it will take some time

APPLE says:

i can't fully accept myself right now as well

it's a long process

wohlres says:

i've only started this... this accepting thing after that one small incident

it's almost as if that one incident was one big turning point in my life

APPLE says:

which one small incident are you talking about?

wohlres says:

probably the only one i ever talk about

 

APPLE says:

her?

wohlres says:

yeah

hehehe

APPLE says:

you do love her very much, don't you?

i wonder why there are people in our lives we just can't untangle ourselves from

wohlres says:

maybe i still do

that's one thing i find hard to accept

still loving someone

it's funny how the heart works

i never planned on falling, and yet fall i did

APPLE says:

you need to stop thinking that you fell for her

the mind is easy to be tricked

lie to it a little

anyway i want to go off to bed now

sakit perut

sigh

nite nite!

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

okay

nite

APPLE says:

take care there

and the one that got away may not be the one for you

not all fishes hook up just like that

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

im thinking its more like im not for anyone

that is what i have accepted

APPLE says:

you are for someone

i truly believe so

you're meant for a relationship and you know how to take care of a girl

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

HAHAHAHAHA

APPLE says:

but if you keep on staring at one window

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

*ehem*

APPLE says:

other windows open behind you and you'll never see them

NEVER make a mockery of what i say

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

no

its not mockery

APPLE says:

then what?

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

you're meant for a relationship and you know how to take care of a girl <--- i just find this line very funny

APPLE says:

i'm serious

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

i can say you are wrong on both counts

APPLE says:

until today you're the only guy i can count on to make me feel good

as in

you'd say i'm pretty or whatever

and stuff like that

no other guy would

not even my own bf

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

but you see... once you put the fishing rod inside its case

and once you head back home in your sweaty wellington boots

you stop looking at the fishes, even if they jump out of the surface

APPLE says:

but you see

you head home and realises that the fish has escaped

and you're hungry

and you realise you need to catch another fish

now this fish may not be as big as the first catch

may not be as nice or whatever

but this could be the fish that will feed you

love is like that

nourishment for the soul

and pls never tell anyone i say that

so crap

even for myself

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

im going to paste that into my pathetic loser blog

all of it

names edited of course

APPLE says:

haha

why must you?

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

paste it?

because the emo blog needs something for its fill

APPLE says:

paste it then

you can even paste my name

i give you that permission

what's important isn't that

what's important is, i hope you got what i'm trying to say

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

i know what you mean

APPLE says:

read my lips

it's time to move on

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

but right now i think i'll go vegan or eat my self

APPLE says:

it's time to move on

listen to this song: tattoo by jordin sparks

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

yeah

i know that song

i had it as my status msg for a month

APPLE says:

yeah

i kinda remember that now

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

if only i still have it

gone with my lsat hard drive

APPLE says:

there

APPLE sends:

    

wohlres: a fisherman's tale: the one that gor away says:

hahaha

you have everything do you?

APPLE says:

songs, perhaps

not everything in life, that's for sure

wohlres says:

you even read between the lines

so unfair

i think the connection is horrible tonight

every one second jerk disrupts the trasnfer

thanks anyway

Why is this here?

God knows.
I just want to move.

I really do.

This acceptance thing... why is it so hard?